It’s one thing to go through life believing that a thing called ‘Love’ is something that could find me in a genuine manner and form, and sweep me off my feet before I live happily ever after like all the Disney princesses have.
Well, it doesn’t exactly work like that, or at least, it didn’t work out that way for me. But I certainly found my Prince Charming, and the person I’ve truly chosen to spend the rest of my life with. And it’s the best feeling I have ever experienced.
Today just so happens to be our one year anniversary, and in honour of that, this post is a celebration of Love – in all of its glorious beauty. I’ve had my fair share of experiences in the department of Love, but this one – this one right here supersedes them all! Never have I felt so safe and secure in my vulnerability nor have I met someone who is dedicated towards creating a space where it is safe for us both to be who we are without fear or judgement.
I just have to sing praises for the man that God put on my path because he is everything I’ve ever prayed for, so much more than I hoped for, and truly the epitome of God’s love.
I found him… the love of my life, and I can’t tell you enough what a glorious feeling this is.
It’s undeniably wild that I look back at my life and remember a time where I really believed that I would never see this day. I think that deep within us all – and whether we like it or not – we yearn for companionship. We yearn to not go through this life thing along; I mean, why would you want to? Life is all the more beautiful with people in it – from work colleagues to close friends, family and life partners.
It’s undeniably wild that I look back at my life and remember when I felt so unworthy and undeserving of Love. It makes me laugh now because the Love I am experiencing now has always been within me; I just thought that it had to be found outside of me…
I know now that that was never the case, and I forgive myself for once thinking that way (because I used to feel so sad about it but there is great power in learning to forgive yourself for the things you didn’t know then – there’s a great deal of Love in that).
I found him… the love of my life, and in the year that we have been together, I have rediscovered beautiful parts of myself and fallen in love with who I am, and the phenomenal woman I am becoming. My relationship has made me face myself – the good and ugly – and really challenged previous notions I had about love and what it’s like to be someone’s life partner.
Gosh, I sit and write this with so much love in my heart because…
I found him… the love of my life, and I truly am in the most beautiful phase of my life. And I have a good feeling that it really will only get better from here.
Love and Light
Khalipha Ntloko 